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Ahhhh, I've been very stressed lately :X

Feeling the heat from everything, studies, cca. Everything's just rushing toward me all at once, I've no time to breathe, to stop. No time to finish my tutorials, I'm lagging behind like dunno what. I feel lost in lectures, tutorials and I'm constantly surrounded by my bright classmates who manage their time really well, unlike myself.

jiamin cmon cmon, how you survive the rest of the yr if you're feeling like that in march!

i went around asking my clsmates to go for WAH today. (: I'm really thankful for the few who are always so supportive, seriously. Who would push me on and just always be there for me. (:
Esp people like yanqi, timothy, qiaoen. You guys are the people who really signed up for the event without me having to persuade and persuade until i feel like, hahah this is a damn good event, why am i on my knees, begging you to go. Haha. I'm not going to push you guys anymore, no siree. It's a fantastic event, loads of hard work goes into it. Every event we plan, the fac com does it behind the scenes, it's not easy. You think easy you come and try haha. (: but we do it all for apollo, we do it cus we want to spice up your life, bring you closer with your faculty. Its alright if you don't want to go, it really is (: But i really appreciate it, for thos who signed up ((: you guys bought yourself tickets to a really fun event, and yupp i promise you'll enjoy it.

today was very demoralised after getting back chem. Lisyn don't worry you're not alone ~ We can do this tgt. Hahahahaha felt very sad and my heart was heavy. haha i didnt even feel like eating (this is big for someone like thiamjiamin). but thanks to all who cheered me up. ((: jmll loveyall.

RnB - Apollo's CIP was a huge success (: Collected 9.36 tonnes of newspaper, goodjob APOLLO(: Many many pictures, did up a post ytd on our faculty blog, go check it out, http://apollofaculty.livejournal.com

After CIP, alfred, weisheng, val and I went to watch coming soon! :D omgggggg its damn scary please! :X mok still says chaba very cute WALAOeh.

hahaha. (: but it was fun, we went arcade while waiting for the movie to start(: played the bball game plus the racing car thing haha walao i suck at it (:

then in the theatre, alfred and weisheng were so sweet hahaha! they saw how terrified val and i were, so they let us sit in the middle, and both of them took the sides, awww so sweet ((:

then ytd night i was feeling damn scared (of the ghost), and it was alr 120am. So i smsed weisheng, sth like WEISHENG I VERY SCARED, CANNOT SLEEP!!!

then he replied: LOL. Dont worry. I can sms you until you sleep. What you want to talk about? :D

awwwww omggg i was so touched srsly. but i bu ren xin trouble him, it was so late alr. but still thanks weets, you're a very sweet guy (((:

ahhhh APOLLO WAH this saturday, our very last event, let's go faccom (((:

anywww :D

It doesn't take a lot (you don't have to be someone great) to be happy.

Being happy is about looking at the bright things in life, appreciating life for its goodness, and appreciating everything you've got (whether its alot or not), instead of doubting, scrutinising, criticising, comparing this and that (and you and me) all the time.

I honestly want to shout at you. Wake up lah.

I'm happy, very very happy (:

I've got a great family, a great dog, great friends, and good health (hahah for now) :D

*Spreads the euphoria to the rest of the world*

This is very very cliche.

But I shall still say it! :D

Value comes with cliche statements cus they're meaningful enough for everyone to use'em so many times (:

BE HAPPY LA!
Life is damn short honestly.
Don't dwell in darkness and think of fill ur head to the brim with epitomes of negativity.
Don't be overly sensitive and think the worst of situations, of people.

Live with pride, dignity, respect, and accept what comes your way with an open mind.
Give constructive criticism, and not despair over every little imperfection.
LAXING. RELAX. COOL DOWN.
Just treasure the life you're given la, many people don't get it so good.

Honesty. People can feel if you're honest. You know if you're honest.

Whatever it is, everyone's got ur back. You should start learning to rely on others and just don't think too much.

Mr Bean: Life's simple pleasures.

Learn from the seed.

All the best (:

anyw :D ytd we went for NUS open house zor! (:

It's rly cool all the free goodies and stuff (: I think law is fun la, despite the guy who told us abt it. He looked quite uninteresting and dry. hahaha.

Mok was like. tell us mor abt law! haha or was it me (:

then he was like, what do you want me to tell you abt?(: hahahaha

but ohwell. its my passion la i shall not let some random law student ruin my impression of an outstanding faculty (:

FASS quite cool too! :D regina and mok quite interested (:

went dinnering at PS after tt! (: wheeee nice day out i love you guys (:

Ytd was not such a bad day in fact, contrary to it being Friday the 13th and all.

Physics was surprisingly pretty doable, could do the questions quite alrightly and had abit of time to shake leg (: but mmmm 3/5 of BT1 is over now, so we need to jiayou for chem and math! (: gdluck to the bio people (bio and chem on the same day, ayee) you guys can do it! 6V wo men jiayou bah! 2 more to go ((((:

yay so early in the morning i came to sch feeling damn tired (slept at 1.45am :X). I saw the very nice nuggety things jieqi left in the angel mortal box for me, thankyou so much dearie (: and yufong! hahahaha his note is the epic one! :D

It started off with like,

HEY JIAMINZOR! :D Guess who I am, your FRIENDLY NEIGHBOURZOR :D hahahahaha

i totally rofl when i saw the multiple zors, esp the neighbourzor part hahaha (: he gave me this bar of chocs too awwww gandong ((: suddenly at that super sweet moment (sweetmo, haha val!), the sky seemed bluer; the grass seemed greener (:

then had physics paper and operation tree rescuezor after that! :D we brought soil and filled up the hole! hahahaha. fyi, 6V has this tree planted in the grassland just next to our CT bench (: It was standing pretty upright, then dunno why (NOT CUS I LEANED ON IT HOR, reginaliew)it started deviating more from the upright position, until now like going to die alr :X soooo after our rescue efforts it seemed straighter (: hahahaha i hope it gets well soon (: TREE, hope you feel better! 6V loves you! :D and we hope the frog we chased away (it was inhibiting our rescue efforts) isnt too mad we made it lost his home/hangout place :X

then a few of us namely Mok Jinlong Felly Lisyn Corina TanLS ReginaLIEW yanqiPHUA meitingNG went cineleisure to watch this retarded cartoon show (which i thought was actl pretty nice) The Tale of Despereaux, Despereaux is a very cute mouse btw (albeit his overmanly voice D:)

shall not elab on that haha (: thn we went koufu to eat some stuff (PAD THAI IS THE BEST I TELL YOU) and we talked crapped and stoned for like 3 plus hours until it was late. went our sep ways, went red line with yanqiphua cus she had GECO and we talked alot abt random stuffzor ((: its nice talking to you phua! :D

yay 6V is love.(:

took neoprints, like DUH. :D

HAHA jinlong looks quite unglam in all the pics! hahaha he accounts for his unglamness: his overly short hair! :D

ahhhh (: damn tired now i give up on h3 hw ): h3 later on, should go read up now )))))))):

have a gr8 weekend and march holiday everybady :D

loveeezor!
jiamin(:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

while everyone is probably mugging very hard for chem test/math assignment/physics spa/blocks, i decided i should waste my day away looking at the rain clouds, listening to my fave (eng) songs, blogging and talking to people.

the week was filled with recbad admin ((: thankful for the enthusiastic J1s who signed up.

plus daily fac dance practices ((((: FAC DANCE! :D:D:D:DD:D::D:D:D

APOLLO WOOSH! :D we won the coveted title of fac dance champs omggg loveeee. (:

good job APOLLO! esp the J1s who mugged the dance and gave it their all while dancing, the j2s who learnt the dance (i can only rmb zhonghan lichan and hui hua!) and of course my lovely fac comm (((: THE BEST I/CS ANY FAC COULD ASK FOR, ANZAI AND SIYU (WE LOVE YOU GUYS) and hoho gino varella LEE! :D my superb dance partner (:

we did it! :D

no adjective close to describing how proud i feel of apollo (:

my faculty, my champion faculty (:

nothing anyone says will change this. you dont have to be proud of your faculty, that's your problem, but i am of mine.

sometime in the wk (i don't rmb) i discovered that yufong from my jnr cls also lives at the shaughnessy! :D haha omg hurray ive never had someone i know live near to me b4 ((((: im gonna crash ur house hoho!

then one of the nights after fac dance jmll went over to lisyn's house to do GP presentation (: i love jmll thats all i have to say. it doesnt matter what we're doing. where we're doing it. the fact we're tgt (and usually having tonnes of fun) just makes the whole affair :D it doesnt matter if we're asked to churn out a 100000 page WR, with these people, i know we'll make it happen. we miracle makers :D thank god for these wonderful people, mark, lisyn, leon.

saturday morning was spent doing h3 hw and then rushing to SMU for game theory, ayee lessons are getting v sian. math math math and more math haha. the prof's very charming, nianci and i were saying, but yaaa i dont understand what he's talking abt. have to go consult soon.

then STJ :D my heart sank when i rushed out from h3 and realised it was raining.

!!!!!! stj was quite a last minute thing and some juniors had to leave before the food arrived! it poured and poured what terrible weather. but we still had fun mmm camwhoring (: Thanks to all the seniors who turned up to make it happen for our juniors (: im sure they felt our love despite having to wait so terribly long for the food! and juniors we hope you guys had fun, let's not limit outings to just stj/jts, lets have them more often alright, 6V loves 7G! :D vice versa right! :D

i suddenly thought of regina's sparkly cap she wore to STJ ytd. (: niceeeeeeeeeeee.

on a side note, jiayou annie! (: huangcheng's lights are depending on you ((: will be there with my MUM and SIS (hahaha yes i dragged them in) to support you and daoju (loveees).

yupppp and today. haizxzx i think im just wasting my life away.

there are so many things i want to do with my life besides studying. i want to build an old folks' home for old people. i want to travel the world and help kids in africa. i want to make a difference to the people around me.

i dont want to just go to sch and have to mug and do tutorials all day this is not the kind of life i want.

but i guess there's not much of a choice so im just doing what i can.

every minute im typing im closer to failing tmr's test.

tests have become the centre of everyone's lives these days. exams tests spa exams tests spa! WHY!

WHY IS THIS SO! (WITS)

mark: i dont understand, i dont understand, i dont understand!

WITS.

and im feeling really sad and depressed now cus i miss my sister. i didnt know how much that little moo meant to me until she left for thailand this afternoon. i am such a terrible sister, im always taking her for granted. i rmb all the times i pushed away away when she came to ask me for help (math and science hw) i am such an idiot omggggg! i just went to her blog and saw what she wrote:

"i will miss , my family ( JLAY!!!).....not to mention my sister JLAY for helping me with maths and science. THANK YOU JLAY. good luck for econs. (((((: will play yrm, orm, rrm, prm AND THE FAMOUS BRM with you!! :D"

yrm, orm brm rrm and prm are all cute stuffed toys btw.

omggggggggggggg she is so sweet and im such an asshole and i promise i will love her forever wholeheartedly for the rest of my life!

have fun and take care sis I LOVE YOU! (: